Or.. Should I..

I really can't do this.
Give up on something that i loved to do.
Once i loved to do, but now it occasionally makes me feel uneasy.
Should i start the new one that will makes me feel comfort, since it will be my frist step? of course it will dissapoint much people arround me.
Or..
Should i start the last one that i used to know, that never makes me feel uneasy, just because everybody said you must be to continued? this thing was always makes people arround me be proud.

at a time like this, i need someone to rely on..
Someone who want to just-listen to what i'm going to say..
Someone that i used to know..
Someone from far away behind me..
Someone who loved me with pure heart..